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Golly Sandra!
You've grown up really crazy...
have I been too denying of you?

optimism?

good things should happen to good people. considering i've only been alive for 18 years, i think i've been a pretty good person so far. i haven't done anything ethically questionable, i don't frequently break the law or cause mischief. i'm nice to the masses, i try to be nice to my family, and i'm a good friend when it comes down to it. i'm tooting my own fucking horn but i don't care. because i think i deserve a little push. some help from wherever to help me get to my next step. i don't WANT to settle for less. i want to go where i want to go. i just need some help. i don't care about winning a million acting awards or some stupid video contests. i want money.
it's a little fucked up when your father says
"i really don't know what to do, sandra."

sick of being the bro

Just saying, I'm sick of being the bro. You know, the girl that's fun to chill with but you don't consider girly enough to hook up with fellow guy friends or take out on dates. The girl that can take your jokes (or just pretend to...) and watch you fart and stuff Dominos down your throat? Yea, me. I'm sick of being me right now.

a date would be nice.