optimism?

good things should happen to good people. considering i've only been alive for 18 years, i think i've been a pretty good person so far. i haven't done anything ethically questionable, i don't frequently break the law or cause mischief. i'm nice to the masses, i try to be nice to my family, and i'm a good friend when it comes down to it. i'm tooting my own fucking horn but i don't care. because i think i deserve a little push. some help from wherever to help me get to my next step. i don't WANT to settle for less. i want to go where i want to go. i just need some help. i don't care about winning a million acting awards or some stupid video contests. i want money.
it's a little fucked up when your father says
"i really don't know what to do, sandra."